OFF FOR TRIP XD

Photographed by Alvin
Make up and hairdo by Annie

Teaser shot of a shoot i have just done recently :)
It's the very first time i work with both of them,
and i was feeling pressured,
worried that i am not up to the expectation.
It's kinda rare for me to feel stressed for a shoot actually,
so i guess it's a good thing to feel like a newbie again :D
It's actually edited by me,
according to the photographer,
i should add more purple in,
but i'm kinda feeling lazy lol..
so i will just wait for his DI artist to retouch then
muahahahahaha..
the make up is very new for me as well,
usually i will be so much focuesed on the eyes make up,
but annie put me extremely light eye's make up,
even the fake eyelashes is even more fine and little compare to my lower lashes
*my lower eyelashes are not bad actually XD*
ahem
so basically,
i feel like i didnt wear falsies XD
And she put very dark color lipstick for me,
so my lips are like,
FUHHH!
even fuller XD
But i'm excited for the new trial!
you know,
my adrenalin is working XD
i love new things,
i'm a sucker for all kinds of new thing lol..

Alvin is a really nice guy to work with,
and annie as well,
she is just lovely!!!
Soon i will be team up with them
*not to say team up*
but uhm will be having few shoots in near future,
and i will be doing styling for the models :D

yep, back to stylist post!
i'm just excited lol..
i wanna build up my styling portfolio,
anyone wanna hire me?
<3

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Today's post only have one pic,
it's rare huh?
my posts are always stuffed with photos,
or those syok-sendiri self taken photos lol..
so today,
give the photos a break,
and let words do the speaking :)

i'm ganna go to bangkok tomoro,
for vacation!!!
:D
what makes me even more excited is that,
i'm ganna go there with crason and elroy :D
Elroy will soon be leaving to UK to further his study,
so this trip means alot to me,
or both of us i guess.
I really wanna spend great time with them,
and let the happy memories engraved in heart forever :)

I used to believe that friendships come and go,
it will be faded just like that if you don't hold it tight enough.
i took it very easy last time,
for me,
it's just okay to happen,
do me no harm.
Perhaps I have not many sincere friends in school last time,
alot of fakers, backstabbers, gossips going on,
and i was hurt in a way.
I didn't want to believe in friends entirely.

But thank god,
he put me in a very lovely group of people during college time,
yep my lovely MOC,
everything is so simple,
everything is so sincere,
love it if you like it,
speak it if you dislike it.
his period of time has really changed me alot,
i love people,
i love my friends,
and i can believe in people :)

Of course,
elroy and crason,
they two just mean so much to me,
they know me from zero until now,
they know my almost everything haha..
these are the friendships i will never wish to lose it.

So elroy,
after you go to UK,
dun ever let this friendship to fade away just like that k?
it's ganna be a huge regret if its reli happened
:P

H1N1 is invading everywhere huh?
god,
just keep all of us safe and sound
please
:)

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Oh yea,
one of my photos have been featured for daily deviation,
1000+ favs
gosh!
i'm so happy XD

And this got me thinking,
if you really like something,
go for it,
do it full hearted,
even though you cant see anything ahead,
even though you feel like getting lost,
even though you gain nothing in return,
just keep on doing it.
soon or later,
soon,
or later,
somebody ganna see the efforts,
somebody ganna appreciate the efforts.
Just don't give up,
keep the dreamer in you,
don't ever lose it,
the saddest thing is dreamer dreams no more dream,
it's really sad.

Some people around me have doubts in what i am doing,
sometimes i have doubt in what i am doing as well,
the doubts weaken me,
the doubts sadden me.
those are really lousy feelings,
but i know we have no way to get rid of it,
because it's just life,
it kicks in everyone's life no?

and i sit down and think,
is it possible if i can do something else
so that i can please all the people that i love,
i think, and think.
no,
i knew i cant,
how to give up a dream when it is my only dream?
i sound selfish right?
or i am just too stubborn?
or i'm just never a great person to sacrifice?

My mom,
she really dislike the idea that i'm working as a freelancer.
i kinda like avoiding her,
because she will lecture me about it almost everyday,
in fact,
she just did it again today.
friend of mine said that i'm selfish,
it kinda like give me a hit to my brain.
am i?
is it called selfish to do things that i love?

people pursuits their dreams,
by getting a full time job,
work and work and one day they wil be reaching the top,
this is what we call the 'right' way to pursuit dreams?
this is the 'proper' way?
or this is the 'only' way?

so now i'm freelancing,
but i'm pursuiting my dreams as hard as anyone can do,
so this is the 'wrong' way?
this is the 'lazy' way?
or i don't seem like i'm working to achieve my dreams one day?
i really don't know.

all i know is,
all i believe is,
as long as i keep myself going,
eventually,
people will see it,
they will appreciate my effort,
they will.

will they?

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It's really a super mixed feeling post no?
i sounded happy at this line,
sounded sad in the next line haha..

but it's so me,
i'm always full of contradictions no?
happy, but sad
positive, but negative
proud, but looking down at myself most of the time.

no wonder few people hav already said that,
i always have the sadness in me in most of my photos,
even though i smile, i look sad.

i didn;t notice it last time,
but now,
yea,
i do look sad.

but i am happy ,
i really am
XD

grrr...
Slap me!

hmmm...
meh!

good day people!
miss me please lol..

see you when i see you

muakz!

All Good Things are Wild, and Free

All Good Things are Wild, and Free


Photographed by Luke
Art Direction/Styling/Post Pocessing and Model by me

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This is another shoot that we did to pass time,
but we have come across quite a number of difficulties for this shoot
compare to the previous one
:D
first of all,
we set a really bad timing for the shoot,
and the light is bad, period.
second,
location isnt good enough,
we actually switch locations few times,
*which rarely happened for our shoots XD*
third,
the light is too harsh so we couldnt really see the real image in the screen.
it looked not so nice in screen and we both felt like omph-less
plus some bla bla bla minor problems,
so it actually took us quite long even though it's just a real simple shoot
XD

And i really wonder,
why malaysians are so much full of curiosity?
up to 95percents of them
will actually slow down their cars
*i mean real slow*
and stare at us
=.=
dudes, just get gone alright?
=.=
i have no problem at all having people looking at me when i'm posing,
but it just made me wonder
=.=

btw,
have you guys noticed the way i edited photos is different this time?
It's so much softer and dreamy no?
lol..
I used to edit the photos in a high contrast way,
but now,
i kinda love low contrast stuffs
XD

I personally actually like this shot the most,
but i didnt put in the album,
it doesnt really click with the others
T.T
so i just put it in behind the scene part lol..

yes this is actually the last location we went to,
the light is real harsh and the outcome is not good.
and because of the location,
the photos here are just so disconnected with the others,
so again,
i just put it here instead of the album
XD

btw, you saw a pic of me with the dog right?
here he is XD
his owner is actually another random people who stare at us for pretty quite long,
so i just approach her ask her to let her dog pose with me.
but this dude,
he is just..
not co-operative
=.=
he keeps on pee pee and poo poo all the time,
i mean,
ALL THE TIME!
and the owner kept on hitting him with the stick=.=
Auntie, just relax okay?
=.=
And all these got me given up on him
XD

Shoot is over and there are few shots left,
so,
i was making fool of myself again
XD

Btw,
This is my very first time dressing up like a gypsy XD
I always have the thought that all gypsy girls are pretty when i was a kid,
Hopefully my photos didnt really ruin the good image of them in my mind,
or yours.
XD

Last but not least!

Muakz!